by Sayuri Tue Feb 23, 2021 6:20 pm
After the voice in her mind had managed to soothe her, Sayuri would lovingly trace with a single ice talon the kanji that Sero had created on her wall. She found the movement calming and the significance of the mark itself was important to her. As Sero spoke of the perceived connection between the two of them, and the repercussions that may have should anything untoward occur she would nod in agreement. There was no way around it now, the two of them were linked in a way that could not be undone. And as ever Sero was the calm and guiding voice that noticed the phenomenon and drew her attention to it.
She didn’t like being told what to do, how to behave or what to wear. It was why she lived in an ice castle now, it was why she had chosen to live with Sero in a cave when they first met.
It was why she never wore shoes.
Sayuri had discovered that she was chaos incarnate, and until recently that had not been an issue. If anything, it had been a freeing revelation for her. But now that it seemed clear that her actions, the things that she reveled in as her personal freedoms, may adversely affect her friend. . . she had to consider how best to handle that. She didn’t want anyone looking down on Sero for anything that she did, even if she saw nothing wrong with what she did.
He was right, humans were rarely happy. They spent so much energy pretending to be things that they weren’t, just so that no one judged them. They lied and cheated and murdered their way in and around problems that could have been easily avoided by just existing as they were meant to. By being genuine to the core of their beings. It was a concept she felt she understood quite well, she had spent most of her life wrapped in the lie that was quiet servitude. Not doing as she wished just to ensure that she didn’t rock the metaphorical boat. That lie that she told herself, that she was weak and scared and helpless, had kept her trapped in a lifeless purgatory for far too long. And now between Sero, Azrael and Jareth she felt that she had come into her own power, that she was finally a real person. No longer the shadow that had existed before.
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She was wrong of course, not that she knew that. There were those that did; her family, her cousin. . . and most of all Jareth. Jareth knew better than anyone how weak and scared and helpless Sayuri was, and he preyed on it. The fear and anxiety, the constant seeking of the approval of others, that had been the stepping stone. The first time she had killed had been another. From that first crack in the thin veneer that was her mental wellness and up until this point, Jareth had been laying the groundwork for his end goals. He had needed something fragile, someone with just enough fear to cling to the thing that would keep them safe; him.
Like it was scripted, she had been afraid and had just enough innate power to draw his attention to her. And like a knight in shining armor he had swooped in to offer her comfort and security. He had taught her over time that she could trust him, that he wanted what was best for her.
That she needed him.
It was perfect. And so ingrained in her now that he doubted anyone could tell the difference between him and her. Or that there even was a ‘him’. It was why he sought to alienate her from most friendly relations, it was far easier to keep up the ruse without the influence of too many people. He did, however, approve of Sero’s influence. He could appreciate the nod to the power the woman had obtained, to the calm and reasoned view of the world and how it worked. Jareth did not want to steer her away from this one, so he allowed her to maintain her friendship without filling her with suspicion and paranoia regarding Sero’s motives.
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Sayuri would look up and smile at Sero, her eyes a strange black with a layer of frost on them as she used her hyoton. “Thank you Sero, you really are my friend. I don’t want to have people judge you harshly for anything I do, and I will endeavour to not allow that.” Not allowing that probably meant punishing those who would dare to speak ill of her friend, but she didn’t think that needed to be said. As he mentioned wanting to go the village she would gesture towards the outdoors and begin moving, happy that he was finally ready to be among the citizens of Kiri. She would pause briefly as he said ‘my queen’, turning her head towards him with a strange smile on her face. A look of curiosity and approval. Many had called her their Queen, but until now, not Sero. She thought perhaps she should say something about it, but thought better of it. The truth was, she liked the honorific and hearing it from Sero somehow made it mean more. She continued outside and down the mountain into the village, assuming Sero came along, otherwise she would wait for him to advance further. “You will be known as a being of truth and justice Sero. And I couldn’t think of anyone better suited for the tasks that lay ahead than you.”