Reference: The name means "Cursed Child of the Fujita", Fujita is one of the most common surnames in Japanese Culture. It's important to note that the first name is generally seen as effeminate, due to female names tending to end in "ko".
Age: 14
Gender: Male
Village: Kumogakure no Sato (Village Hidden in the Clouds)
Rank: Genin
Title: None
Clan: None
Bloodline: None
Element(s): Unknown
Skill(s):
- Taijutsu
- Genjutsu
- Sensory
Stats
- Strength: E (Free)
- Constitution: E (Free)
- Stamina: D (150 EXP)
- Speed: E (Free)
- Coordination: E (Free)
- Intelligence: C (450 EXP)
- Perception: C (450 EXP)
Unique Abilities:
- Ghostlike: Mako has suppressed his presence and learned to sense others for as long as he can remember. It was his only survival method and is something he can do on a near-instinctual level. Due to this, he doesn't require hand seals to perform sensory and suppression Jutsu. However, this is only gesture-less casting. He must still "charge" his chakra and follow the other "tells" or triggers such technique requires.
Appearance: Mako is a young teen that has been abused for most of his life, and it shows through his looks and build. Standing at only five foot four inches, his build is incredibly fragile, holding almost no muscle on his thin frame. though this is partly to do with his age it also has to do heavily with his lifestyle or lack thereof. His skin is pale from lack of exposure to the sun, and covered in scars from past abuse. His hands are especially bad, with the nails and fingertips holding extensive scar tissue from obvious torture after-effects, knobbed joins from physical abuse, and similar effects.
When it comes to Mako's facial structure, it contains a combination of wide cheek cheekbones, that are well framed by a surprisingly strong, pointed jawline, and an averagely sized forehead. His lips are slim, barely noticeable— their slight pink coloring barely separating them from the rest of his pale skin. However despite this, they match well with the slim, small, and slightly pointed nose, the combination adding a slight effeminate tone to his facial features. Slim black eyebrows decorate the skin above narrow, slightly slanted eyes that give him obvious connections to eastern roots in his heritage. Dark circles are almost permanently ingrained in the skin underneath his eyes— it's still clear that he rarely gets much sleep.
Mako's eyes are a dead grey in color, and hold the trait of being sanpakugan (this refers to eyes in which the white space above or below the iris is visible). Generally, his eyes are often compared to those of a "dead fish" due to the lack of any real light or interest found within them. Due to his abuse, he has bad eyesight and wears a pair of glasses in order to help himself properly see. When it comes to his hair, he holds simple, pitch black hair that is simple and straight. His hair has an untamed look to it, and lack of actually dedicated care means split ends and grease are commonly found in it falling in waves at neck-length.
The only other notable aspect of Mako would be the way he holds himself, and his voice. Mako's posture is incredibly suppressed, constantly walking along the edges of rooms, dark alleyways, and hiding as much as possible. His eyes always staring at his surroundings, obsessed with watching for the next attack. Trusting nothing, and no one, he has a habit of sitting on his heels even in chairs and holding himself in order to make himself as small of a target as possible for anyone to see. Matching this, Mako holds an incredibly low voice, surprisingly deep for his age, and combined with how quietly he speaks tending to be nothing more than a dull rumble that cannot be heard properly at all, and when heard holds a dull, monotone to it.
History:
Trigger Warnings: Themes of Sexual, Emotional, and Physical Abuse, Pedophiliaphillia, as well as other dark themes.
To start our story for Mako, one must go back a bit before his birth. Mako's family, the Fujita, were a relatively wealthy family of merchants in the upper districts of the land of lightning with strong connections to the other noble families, though not quite nobles themselves. They lived a relatively rich lifestyle and enjoyed many things that others would never taste in their lives. However, this lifestyle began to slowly shift as their specialty goods were outpaced by another business. As such, their worlds began to slowly fall apart. Mako's mother and father were married via an arrangement between families, there was no love between them, though it wasn't as though they hated one another either. As the stress began to pile up, however, it became more and more clear that his father was not prepared to deal with the fall of the business, having been raised with money and never having gone without it, he had only ever known how to try and "maintain the ship" so to speak. Never how to "save a sinking ship".
Due to this, when the business began to sink, he was desperate for a reason as to why thinking that he could have done no wrong. From this line of thought, he managed a single connection, the family business began to fail when his wife had become with child. This became his reason, the reason that his business was failing, the reason his wife looked at him with such distaste, the reason his servants abandoned him. Everything that went wrong became the unborn child's fault. He was cursed, though he never said it, not until the day Mako was born, and with his birth came the death of his mother. Though he did not grieve to heavily, his father did see this as a clarification that he had been right. Without anyone to tell him otherwise any longer, he named the boy "Mako" quite literally meaning "Cursed Child". So began the steady fall of the family even further. For now that the man had a reason that was out of his control to fight against, he no longer even tried to fight. The business of the family fell within a few months— and the savings lasted for a few short years.
The family was forced to move to the slums of a small town, and with that, came to the concept of Mako having to be "punished" for existing. Everything was the young child's fault. Now that they were in the slums, no one cared enough to intervene with the screams of the young boy every night beyond yelling to shut him up. The abuse started out weak, but as time passed and the father's frustrations grew— they escalated, his sadistic side causing them to rise even faster. Eventually, the boy was put through all forms of abuse from physical to sexual as the years went by, beaten, bruised, covered in scars and broken, Mako's personality was twisted into a self-loathing young boy that wanted nothing more than to die. But was held back by only fear of the unknown.
Despite this fear, the thoughts lingered within his mind, driven to levels of depression and suppressed emotion even further along than what he had initially suffered, Mako began to spend his time in the slums desperately avoiding his father. Though he still had to return before night, he was able to at least escape the hellhole of his life for a few hours each day. It was during this time that Mako began to actually make acquaintances, the first being a young girl, who began to drag him into delivery jobs in order to ensure he got food. This meeting would be the first positive relationship that Mako had ever managed to acquire, and the pair would begin to rapidly spend more and more time together.
Eventually, this time would lead to Mako beginning to actually enjoy things, even if he refused to admit such, the resulting reaction from his father noticing him being slightly less beaten and broken leading to some of the worst abuse he had ever endured. Due to the physical damage, as well as the psychological abuse triggered by the sexual assault, Mako is pushed to his limit and begins to heavily contemplate suicide for the first time. This leads to him seeking out a large cliff near the edge of the slums, prepared to leap, his depression having finally beaten out his fear of death; until Moriko finds him having been concerned due to the fact he hadn't shown up for the job that morning. The result is her dragging him back, intending to hit him for being an "idiot" until seeing his new wounds from the damage he had suffered.
This leads to a short discussion, in which Mako refuses to tell her what had happened, and instead of rejecting him as the broken boy expects, she instead lets it go, and forces him into a promise. To find something to live for, every day, since it was a promise to her, he had to hold it. This would be his first attempt at making a friend, as well as his first promise. The promise becomes Mako's psychological crutch and forces him to search for something to support his life, eventually leading him to find the sun's rising to be therapeutic. This becomes Mako's only source of joy, as well as his escape. However, this joy is short-lived as his father begins to notice the route the boy takes every morning to come and see Moriko and the sunrise.
His father takes Moriko, and after sexually and physically abusing the girl in front of Mako who cowered in a corner, unable to do a thing, Moriko despite the situation claws the man's eyes and tells Mako to run away. To run and hold to the promise he had formed with her and to live. Having acquired, and lost, his first friend within a few days, Mako does as he always had. He did as he was told, and he ran. Abandoning Moriko and his father to escape into the streets of the slums, he didn't stop running until he collapsed, his unhealthy body unable to properly keep up the pace. When he could rise, he repeated this. Again, and again, until he had escaped the small village and slums he had called home only to find himself in the dark world.
For the next few years, Mako is forced to survive on nothing but instinct and fear. Seen as a street rat or orphan by most, he is unable to trust the "kindness" others offered him, forcing him to live on anything he could manage to catch or eat for many years of his life. Eventually, the boy found his way, stumbling, quite literally upon Kumogakure no Sato after years of trailing caravans and travelers in order to survive. Becoming a street rat in the city, however, was different from being one in the small surrounding towns, and he was quickly tracked and questioned.
Why wasn't he in an orphanage? Who was his guardian? How long had it been since he had a meal?
Questions that Mako didn't have an answer too, and when they finally managed to calm him enough to communicate, he was transferred to an orphanage. Given food, shelter, initially even welcomed by the other children whom had stories of their own. But, there was a darkness in the boy that even some of the most abused children couldn't relate too. His dead eyes unnerved them, his behavior scared them, and when he was found killing animals for food instead of asking for it, he was labeled a freak. Acting just as someone that would "match his name".
Mako was alone once more, though he had never realized that he'd been given a chance to be anything but. Too broken to realize or understand that he had a chance at a real life, he instead was swallowed by his mistrust of the world even further. Eventually, the young boy stumbled upon a man training, wearing a headband. Mako had spent his entire life hiding and observing. So, when the man, a ninja himself, didn't notice the boy until well into his training session, he grabbed the runt as he attempted to flee. After finding out how long he had been there, telling the boy he should join the Academy.
This led Mako down his new path, however, the Academy had the rule that the child had to be of stable mind and body, and though he could arguably have a stable mind, Mako was anorexic. An entire life of starvation and abuse had led to a body so far gone that he struggled with proper movement, let alone actual training. He was allowed to enter, but only if he accepted dedicated physical therapy in order to slowly nurse the boy's body back to health. Agreeing, if only because it felt like his only choice and they offered him knowledge and healing in return for, essentially, being a weapon for the village (a deal that made sense to the abused boys twisted psyche).
The next two years of Mako's life he became nothing but a sponge of learning, he didn't care for social events or becoming "friends" with anyone. Bullied, ignored, and not caring he spent all of his time in the Library. Never returning to the orphanage beyond to get food, he would dedicate all his time to his mind. Reading books, controlling his chakra, storing knowledge and learning as much as he could at a tremendous pace for his age. However, his body was healing far more slowly. The numerous scar tissue and physical trauma even with medical jutsu and therapy were extensive and could not be rushed. By the time Mako finally graduated with tremendous academic skill and jutsu ability, he had barely managed the minimum passing grade for his physical tests. His academics being the only reason he'd managed to pass.
Given his headband, his body finally had the ability to properly return to proper health. Having met the "starting line" that most children obtained around the age of being a toddler to grow properly. Mako's story would begin, broken, scared, abused, terrified of life and his surroundings. Yet, with a goal to at least obtain power, to pay back the debt he now owed the village as his near-robotic mind processed such so-called "kindness" that it had offered him. Despite it all, he was alive, and possibly, the unfortunate child could have a future once again.
Personality:
- Spoiler:
- Traits:
Logical — Above all else, Mako will value the simple logic of a situation— choosing the most effective path to get to his objective, not seeing a point in overcomplicating things. He cuts situations down to their bare bones and solves the issue expelling as little energy as possible.
"I don't care about your turmoil or insecurities, only facts and the most effective route to accomplish what is required."
Perceptive — One of Mako's greatest strength is his knack for examining his surroundings with a tremendous focus on a nearly subconscious level, constantly examining those he talks to, those near him, the environment— anything that could give him an edge should things go south, even in the most peaceful of circumstances.
"I have a knack for turning impossible situations in my favor."
Openminded — Saying that Mako doesn't care about an individual's race, species, gender, or sexuality would be implying that he even gives any of that thought when he doesn't. To him, there are only people— and they are all a threat, nothing else matters— an argument could be made that it's less the fact he's "open-minded" and more that he just "doesn't care about others" in many instances.
"In the environment that I was raised in, you expect me to care about sexuality, gender, or race?"
Loyal — Not to be misunderstood with patriotic views or a sense of justice and law. Mako has none of these things— however, what he does have is an immense loyalty to others if he deem's them worthy of such. He couldn't care less if the empire burned to the ground— he only cares about it, because those that he cares for— want to protect it, nothing more.
"I am in your debt, and that means that your enemy is my own."
Cynical — Mako has a very specific view on the world as a whole— in that anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. He expects everyone he meets to backstab him, any situation to take a turn for the worst, and never expects anything to go right the first, or even the second time. Due to this, often enough he is proven right due to his own attitude toward the subject matter— seeing it as simply realistic, and the way the world works for everything to be against you.
"I'm usually told that I'm very pessimistic, I prefer the term realistic."
Dispassionate — When it comes to caring about things in general, Mako struggles quite a bit. He has no ambition of his own— everything he does is connected in some way to others, relying entirely on them to be his driving force. Without others to help guide his hand, he has no drive, no goals, and no desire to do anything— even the fact he is alive he owes to an oath he made to another. In a word, Mako is empty.
"The amount of energy required in order for me to really care about you, or anything you do, is quite extensive."
Antisocial — Due to a mixture of his fear, dislike of being touched by others, and his natural desire to be in quiet, low-populated area's— Mako's natural introverted nature has evolved far beyond that to the point where he is now completely antisocial. Disliking social interaction with all but a few specific individual's, and even that tends to be draining for him over long periods.
"I find most individuals' presence intolerable— though I admit there are a few exceptions."
Depressed — Due to his childhood, as well as his general outlook on life as a whole— Mako is an extremely depressed individual. This doesn't mean that he is always sad— but that he suffers from periods of immense depression, where he questions himself, his reason for living, and similar aspects of his life. Generally, he'll manage to break out of it after a day or two but becomes even more dispassionate and empty during this time as he questions his very existence.
"I find that often, my mind drifts to wondering if anything I have done, or will do, was or will really be worth anything."
Ruthless — Mako is absolutely unforgiving when it comes to the few things he actually aims for, or when it comes to protecting the few things he manages to care about. Torturing for information, threatening the lives of innocents in order to get his opponent to break, aiming to kill with every attack, all this and more he would do without any hesitation if he feels it is required to achieve victory.
"If it's to ensure my goals, or protect those two idiots, nothing goes too far."
Sadistic — Though it's usually a side of himself he keeps under wraps, Mako is a natural sadist— enjoying causing others pain, be it emotionally or physically. This has been accentuated even further due to his childhood, twisting him into an even darker individual to the point that having power over another, and making them suffer, is one of the few things he truly enjoys.
"Come, let me show you a fraction of the pain I have endured through my life."
Detached — Mako is emotionally detached— and in many ways doesn't care in the slightest about things that most people normally would, if a child was crying or about to die— but he didn't know the child, he would continue walking without even batting an eye. This extends to most things in life, and makes communicating with others, or befriending them an immense difficulty— due to him not caring about such either way.
"I have occasionally been called "Robotic", or "Cold", but I'm simply following the most logical series of options available to me."
Cowardly — Mako does not hesitate in acting like what many would deem as "dishonorable", or "cowardly". From the way he fights, to how he interacts with others— he will play dirty, hit below the belt, throw dirt in the eyes, threatening those the opponent cares about, running to hide, or any number of other combinations in other to ensure his victory— no matter how slim the advantage may be. The fear that once controlled him is now used as a tool like any other, sadly— this means he tends to be seen as a dishonorable coward by many.
"Being afraid has always been my greatest strength, as well as my greatest weakness."
The best term that could be used to describe Mako would be "Borderline Sociopathic" or "Emotionally Broken", this is not to be confused with calling the young man a psychopath. Though there are certainly a few traits that could lead one toward that thought process as well. Due to his abusive past, and the twisted manner in which he has been forced to adapt, topped off with the fact his "natural" personality was never that great, to begin with, many could understand and see why Mako would have a bit of a troubling mindset. When it comes down to it, Mako is ruled by the one thing he has managed to find hold itself true in the chaotic, unfair, and unforgiving world around him: and that is logic.
A mindset that developed due to his abuse having shut him out of normal relationships and social understanding, this word became the basis for all of his natural mental and emotional defenses. Love became something that was illogical, as did anything that he had never had, believing they opened doors only so that they could be shut in your face once more. Due to his inability to cope with the concept of true kindness, love, or other positive emotions not having some sort of benefit for the other party beyond returning that love, Mako has applied this "logical" through process to everything, and is his primary coping and understanding mechanism when it comes to other people.
This does not mean the logic that normal people use, such as "This man has been my friend for years, he wouldn't betray me," but instead in the purest essence of the word, twisted and corrupted through his own life lessons. Instead, Mako is the type of individual to apply numerical value or "deal-based" value to everything, if someone were to offer him "kindness", then there had to be a reason that could make "logical" sense to him. If they wanted to train him, then they wanted to have him owe them so that when he became stronger they could call on him to do something that they were unable to do in the future. If they wanted to give him food, then they wanted him indebted to them so that they could use him for their own means— the list continued.
When it comes to the concepts of love, kindness, or selflesness, Mako believes them to quite simply, not exist. This is in part, not so much from the fact he cannot himself be kind, but instead that he has become so jaded, and painful, that this "debt" concept is the only way he is able to process kindness, giving or accepting it. Even if he himself does a kindness for another, he refuses to admit such a thing, even to himself, and instead simply makes it a "debt" that he entirely "expects them to pay back", and yet often will never call on it. Hiding this fact by simply saying that he will only call on the debt when he is in dire need, so as to not "waste a potential recourse". As such, it's not that Mako is void of kindness or love himself, simply that he doesn't understand how to properly accept, or give it due to how he was treated during his key developmental stages in life.
Even when faced with an individual that should make him question these aspects, such as Yuuta Yasui, Mako simply considers it something such as "Altruism" and as such is not "selflessness" but instead "selfishness" because the individual feels good about themselves by doing good and being kind. This cynical outlook on the world is reflected in everything he does. Be it in the shape of something as simple as casual conversation, or more important decision making and even combat or and missions. Viewing the world, quite often, not in a state of "Black and White" or in a state of "Different Colors" but instead in a view that quite simply, everything is grey. Morals, Laws, Emotions, Bonds— all of it is meaningless in the end, a means to an end due to how he processes things, and the fact he has not been forced to confront the feelings he refuses to admit he has.
Due to this line of thought, his loyalties are limited to only two things, one of which he is conscious of and fully admits, his own survival, and in part due to his own natural instincts. The other loyalty being something he refuses to admit, even to himself, the lives of the few people he calls "Allies" vocally, and "Friends" subconsciously. When it comes to his views on the world, these loyalties are the only things that drive his every action and as such, he has no interest in such concepts as honor, ethics, or moral codes. If he has a supposed loyalty to anything beyond those two aspects it's only so that he can maximize the chance of survival for one of his two true "loyalties". If he is a loyal, outstanding member of the government it's not because he believes in them or their values but instead, because they offer him the most efficient way to gain strength and increase his own (or his friends) survival rate.
When it comes to his decision making— any means, justify the ends. Not out of some twisted ideal of justice or doing the right thing, but simply because he doesn't care about any number of things he must sacrifice in order to protect himself or those around him he actually cares about.
The second trail of thought that stems from this broken mindset and the second largest part of his personality, is his absolute and total terror of the world, and more importantly— of death itself. Mako is ruled by absolute terror, manifested from the abuse of his past as a coping mechanism in order to survive, and then honed into a deadly weapon as the years passed and he learned to properly control it. Though he no longer has a fear of pain due to his immense pain tolerance meaning he barely even feels it any longer. He does fear the concept of death itself, well beyond what others would dub normal. Fearing the end is a natural line of thought— a simple and effective survival instinct that all living creatures have to some degree. However, Mako's goes beyond simple fear, but instead absolute terror, to the point that he never stop thinking, never stops thinking about the ways even the most simple situation can go wrong.
If a normal person entered a possible situation that could end in them sustaining damage, or dying, then they would automatically begin contemplating ways to avoid potential dangers. But if they were simply walking down the street, then such thoughts wouldn't enter their mind. However, Mako does think of such things, no matter where he may be his mind is constantly working on how any situation, at any point, could go wrong, and how to make that situation disappear before it happened, as well as how to deal with it should it happen anyway. This terror is what has driven him to constantly examine the world with a critical eye. Be it a simple conversation or interaction, or wandering an area. It doesn't matter how, or when it happens, Mako is convinced that no matter how slim the chance of something going wrong may be: it will happen, at some point. Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. He is convinced that he must be prepared for everything that comes to mind, no matter how unlikely it may seem.
The final noteworthy trait of Mako's mind stems from a side of himself that he tends to keep locked away, in the shape of his absolute hatred. Not only of the world, but of himself— his terror, his inability to properly understand other people, his depression, weakness, and more. Though some of these traits appeared to have lessened since his time as a child, they have not been removed or "fixed" but instead simply bottled up and shoved away on a shelf in the back of his mind. Leaving it to boil over and mix with his natural sadistic tendencies, feeling pleasure in making others suffer, to make them feel a taste of what he has endured all his life, out of a deep seeded need to try and make others understand him. This small section of his mind is in many ways, insane. Thinking that by harming others, by making them suffer, they understand some part of him which makes him happy, leading to his sadistic tendencies. This hatred, and wrath, is very much the "caged" part of his mind and as such is the strongest aspect of his other personality due to it being the core of his subconscious that "breaks free" when he is angered, or excited to the correct degree.
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