Hanabi’s eyes widened, her sight shooting up to the face that opened the door, her leg moving a step back to see a different man. Before she could formally apologize, he began speaking, inviting her in and making sure she was taken care of per Peragus’ request. Her eyes moved to the side, a small blush forming across her cheeks. ‘
This wasn’t needed y’know…’ She thought to herself, reluctant to go in but eventually was encouraged to step in. The home did seem a bit homier, more things added and a bit of wealth added in.
Some things have changed since she was last here. She gulped as memories flashed in her mind, her hand covering her mouth, clearing her throat. This.. wasn’t the time to remember. Peragus had opened his house to her and she had to remain modest, even with their current relationship. It wasn’t on good standing but she didn’t think she would need to take his offer so soon. Reaching the mediation room, Sorethin opened the door, letting Hanabi in, which led her to see a damp haired Peragus in a white robe. She went to look back at the hitler but the door had already shut.
Hanabi stayed staring at Peragus, his icey eyes meeting her warm colored eyes once again. There, she felt what she felt when they first saw each others eyes. Goosebumps, a cold thrilling feeling came across her body, almost as if a breeze came over her., A small sneeze coming from her interrupted the feeling, bringing her back down to earth. ‘
I better not get sick from this..’ Just as Hanabi went to open her mouth, a small squeak came from her as Peragus spoke first. He invited her to sit if she wanted to at least. She was told to be prepared for a few things coming her way and she made a subtle uncomfortable noise. As if she was uncomfortable with the idea of a butler doing everything for her. It was weird… she wasn’t in Sorethins place this time.
“
I-…” As she spoke her first word, she realized how quiet it was and how loud she became, making her freeze for a moment. “
I-it’s… fine…” She softly spoke, afraid of being too loud. Peragus had sounded a bit different, keeping it mind for a later conversation. Hanabi’s body began to shiver from the warmth now beginning to warm her up. A few teeth clicks here and there, Hanabi remained standing by the door in this quiet and dark room. She didn’t expect to be seeing him so soon. There last interaction didn’t end well with Hanabi slapping Peragus. She was upset, yes, but Hanabi also didn’t realize why Peragus said what he said.
Hanabi only knew that she trusted too quickly, leaving her with the same outcome as anyone else. Leaving Hanabi Alone. She didn’t necessarily love Peragus as in wanting to marry him. Though the option was open, marriage wasn’t a need in her life. She never thought about it in the past so she didn’t think about it with Peragus. She does love him, Care for him, and wants the best for him. Hanabi took a deep breath and let out a slow exhale in the form of her lips making an O. She walked over, next to Peragus yet across from him at an angle. Her damp hair laid across her neck from her putting it up.
The messy hair eventually fell out, hair falling down her back, even onto the floor. Her hair had grown significantly longer, looking as if it wasn’t being taken care of. Speaking of changes, Hanabi has seemed to be a bit thinner. Her eyes didn’t seem to like lively as before and she had bags under her eyes. Something was going on with her as well but unknown to both, they felt the same. She wouldn’t say unless he asked. To put another burden on him wouldn’t be right. Avoiding eye contact for a bit, Hanabi kept her focus on the ground, somewhat zoning out. “
Uh-um…” She began to speak.
“I’m sorry..”
For a second time, Hanabi began to lose it in front of Peragus, tears falling down her face and apologizing for their last interaction. Truth be told, it had eaten her up. She hated how she left it and was afraid he hated her.
“
I’m sorry for not… understanding your feelings. For slapping you and thinking you just wanted to hurt me. I’ve been so alone for my whole life until recently and I was just so mad at myself for thinking I could be happy again and have someone who lo-…” She caught herself for a moment and she wiped her tears, sniffing in a few times and continuing. “
—liking me for who I am… Seeing me for who I was, making me feel like I wasn’t some girl who was a maid to a clan that doesn’t want her.” Hanabi’s feelings poured out, explaining how she felt, especially apologizing
multiple times for her slap against him. Then she admitted a few things. “
I haven’t slept much since.. I haven’t.. taken care of myself properly… I don’t know why… I’m so used to being left alone but this…” She grabbed her legs and pulled them to her chest, hugging them. “
It.. hurt so much more…” She softly spoke, her eyes slowly closing, fighting to stay awake.
…Knock Knock Knock…
Hanabi’s eyes fly open from a second of sleep and she remains in her position. “
Don’t let that woman in…” If Peragus we’re to ask why and or who she was, she would reply with three words.
“She’s my mother.”